Simple Joys
- Me: *tooot*, pumasa ko ng 135. :')
- *tooot*: good things happen to good people.
- ~AWWWWW. Unexpected.
Like I never existed.
“I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn’t know you had inside you. And it doesn’t matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends… you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he’ll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you’ll go somewhere new. And you’ll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.”
Iris (Kate Winslet), The HolidayBerry McFlurry
- You Could Be Happy
Eyes Open (advance)
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You Could Be Happy - Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won’t know
But you weren’t happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops ‘till it’s madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you, how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I’d been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it’s all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don’t think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
Hi.
It’s been quite a while. I don’t know anything about you anymore.
I got my student’s permit already. Then Achi and I watched a movie. She treated me to ice cream afterwards. Kat doesn’t want to go home anymore. She won’t return our calls. Not even a text. Achi and I fought today. I’m not okay with my mom too today. Well I hope it will get better tomorrow. My 135 finals went okay, I think. Well hopefully. I don’t want to expect though because I’m still very nervous about it. I hope you did pray for me. I got exempted from the 150 finals. You got exempted too. Congrats. You said you studied hard, and you wanted to make up for your failed marks. Well you did it, and I’m happy for you. I don’t know what to do for our 140 MP. And I’m too lazy and tired to study anymore. Just saying. I wasn’t productive at all today. Well, sembreak’s coming up and everything’s going to end soon. I have a lot of plans for sembreak. I miss a lot of people, and I’ve been meaning to catch up with them. And I think we’re going to have a beach escape, too. You know what? Achi bought me a ticket to Hong Kong. We’re going there this coming December. She knows that we’re over. I don’t know. She sensed it, I guess. But she doesn’t know about her. I didn’t want to tell that part. I still don’t want Achi to be angry at you.
Just so you know.
I hope you’re okay and well. Good luck with whatever it is you’re doing.
Peyton: Lucas, you can’t. I’m sorry, I’m I’m sorry, but you just you can’t, because I love you and because you fixed my car, do you remember that day? Because that day changed everything, and I just, I didn’t know it at the time, but when you fixed my car you fixed my heart. And when you proposed to me two years ago, I just wasn’t ready. And I was lost and scared, so I said someday, but someday is now Luke, it is. Someday is now, and I love you. Please don’t leave me again. People always leave. At least that’s what I should have said. Instead, I said nothing, and he said…
Lucas: I do.
One Tree Hill 5.12 - “Hundred”
Lesson Learned
It’s best to keep things to yourself. Because really, no one will understand you. Not even close.
